Each day we wake up in a blessing, a second chance to do better. Sometimes we can feel like we are up against a wall and it gets hard to breathe. Together friends, let’s choose to keep going and take a Deep Breath.
I know I haven’t been doing a lot of blog posts and there IS a reason for that! I am currently doing a lot of Self healing and reflecting. I realize that I can’t work from an empty cup and could burn out. I don’t want to fail, fall into a depression, I want to HEAL.
The beginning of this process is truly a challenge. I have to dig deep into the core of Myself. I’ve cried a lot, I’m angry, I’m sad… so full of emotions. But it IS for the good that this happens. With the baby steps that I’ve taken, I feel lighter and some stress levels has decreased.
So please be patient with me. I am ok, but will be even better soon. I have some plans up my sleeve and I look forward to executing them! I pray that you all are well and I thank you for your continued support! Cheers to SELF GROWTH!!!
This is not an easy task. The truth is, we rely so much on people and outside factors to give us happiness. You’re significant other, family, nor your friends are responsible for your happiness. You ARE.
We have to dig deep. Release those layers of hurt, dysfunction, self doubt, and fear. Things will get tough, you may have days and months of the ugly crying but it’s ok. Never think crying is a weakness, it’s a reminder that you are Human.
I too, am doing the same. Therefore, you are Not Alone.
On today, 9 years ago, I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. After receiving the news I felt relief. I was experiencing symptoms for a year before getting this news and I was just happy that I wasn’t crazy. The symptoms at that time was numb and weakness on my left side of my left shoulder, arm, fingers, leg, feet and toes. I would fall, and needed assistance to walk. My hands would fall asleep a lot and I battled nerve pain. It all made sense once the neurologist showed me the images of my Brain that at the time had 9 lesions on it. This was all the confirmation I needed.
I’ve learned a lot about myself since the diagnosis. I realized that I am strong, my Faith was tested, I can be too critical of myself, it’s ok to say “No” and I learned the importance of support.
The Long Island MS Walk is May 18th and I’m super excited this year. I will have my family, friends and some friends from work to walk along with me and other MS Warriors.
Thank you to my family and friends for loving me and all of the challenges that may come with me. Thank you to all who have prayed for me. Thank you to those who reach out to see how I’m feeling. Thank you to those who donated to our Walk MS team “Nicole Cherise”. Thank you to those who have reached out to me for support during their own MS diagnosis. Lastly, thank you to my New MS Warrior friends, we are in this journey together and I love the fact that I can chat with others who can Relate.
The Unknown is what makes us give the quick answer of “No”. We get frightened because we have to step out of our comfort zone. We make excuses of why we can’t be great. Therefore, we choose to give up.
Friends, our biggest challenge is to take that leap of faith. We get so close to achieving our dreams, so close that we can Taste it! Yet, we fall short.
Let’s make a conscious effort to try for that leap. We can write down our vision, do the research, and finally execute! Believe in yourself. You Owe it to yourself. Be Happy and not afraid of Success.
Where is the Love for the MS Warriors? Right here!!!
As I’ve written before, March is MS Awareness Month and this week is MS Awareness week. Even with my wobbly legs, I am continuing to Push Through!
I made a choice to show up strong for my loved ones, go to work even when it hurts, and I’ve modified outfits so that I’m comfortable as an effort to beat the challenges of MS. There are some days that I’m not able to give 100% but trust and believe giving 0% is NOT an option .
To my fellow Warriors and Caregivers, I’m proud of you for Not giving up. The Pain and Depression is real and can effect us but I believe in You! I also believe that we will be Victorious against this horrible disease. Therefore, I will continue to send spiritual and positive energy your way! Thank you all for being supportive to me as well!
That’s something I continue to tell myself during challenging times. It’s not easy battling a difficult disease like MS, but I can’t give in to it. I know many that read my blog, are battling other autoimmune diseases, mental health issues, or spiritual brokenness. I also, know that Caregivers have a challenging task when it comes to watching someone they love suffer. WE ARE NOT ALONE! Together, we can lift one another up because Support goes a long way.
This past week, I had my Tysabri treatment and the days after were rough. I had difficulty walking, it was a task to get dressed, I fell twice and I cried because of the pain and weakness in my legs. Even during this time of despair, I promised myself that I wouldn’t give up and I would PUSH through it all at my own pace. I urge you all to do the same. I went to the gym on Sunday and did my best with what I had for that day (I do the spoon theory in my head lol). The amount of support that was given to me was overwhelming and it truly melted my heart. People re-posted my video and tagged me as Inspiration for them to exercise.
Please continue friends. Don’t give up on yourself or the process. Below is the video that I posted and keep in mind that days prior, I was not able to walk far alone. God is good. Thanks for reading!!!