Tag: multiple sclerosis

Testimony

Emotional Days happen.

MS symptoms can try to take over my spirit. Being a wife, a mother, a scholar, and a hard worker can be overwhelming. I’m sure many of you have felt the same. I’m here to tell you that victory is ours.

This picture was taken after crying my little heart out but a crooked smile was able to surface. I continued to think about my “why?” and I was able to wooo saaa and calm down. I pray that you all can find reason to smile after your storms. I’m here for you if you need me ♥️

Thank you for reading,

Nicole Cherise ♥️

The weather

As a child, I never quite understood how older people could tell it was going to rain or when they said “It’s cold, I can feel it in my bones”. It’s funny how life happens because now I say similar things!

Since being diagnosed with MS, my body lets me know if the humidity is high, if it will rain, and if the temperature is very cold. I experience leg weakness during this time, numbness in toes and sometimes very painful nerve pain. As I type this post, my left big toe is curing numb and I’m having nerve pain in both legs. It really sucks.

However, the show has to still go on. On days like this, I still have to be wifey, mommy and assistant supervisor at work. I pray to God for strength, as tears may flow down my cheeks and slowly get it together. I know there are others who experience this and more. There are other warriors with physical ailments and mental issues that can be thrown off due to the weather.

When it rains, it pours. I wish, I could cut back some of the storms, but unfortunately that can’t happen and that’s Life. How we choose to manage IS up to us.

We can let the weather take over us and our spirit or we can dance in the rain and view the rainbow that follows.

Thanks for reading,

Nicole Cherise ♥️

Nicole Cherise’s MS Chronicles: what I dislike most

Hey guys! Happy Friday 🙌🏾🙌🏾

One of the things I planned to do more in this blog is to spread Multiple Sclerosis Awareness and my journey battling it. I’m an open book in regards to this because I want to make sure people who are affected by the disease understand that they are not alone, and that also includes caregivers.

What I dislike most besides the diagnosis and symptoms, is the UNPREDICTABILITY of MS.

This is a challenge because earlier in the day I could be great, then all of a sudden my left leg will get weak and I start to limp or drag it. Making plans truly sucks because I can have something planned out a month prior and then the week of or even the DAY of, my legs decide not to work or I’m in a lot of pain. Pleeeeeeeease don’t even let me start about the weather. If the humidity is high, I feel drained. If it’s raining or freezing cold, it literally hurts me.

This gets me bummed out because I do not drive during these times, sometimes I need assistance walking, I do not get to exercise as much as I’d like to and I don’t always have the energy to run after my son. I do cry about this, I do get angry, but I try to remember that I’m still blessed. Many fellow MS Warriors are in wheelchairs, need walking aids Everyday and I’m sure they would trade places with me any day.

To put me in a “better place” mentally, I think of my “Why?”. I think of my family and friends, whom are my support system. I need them just like they need me so I can’t give up! So, to anyone who battles a chronic disease, and caregivers, please hold on. Do not give up. I can’t promise you that life will be “great” but I can promise that you have a pal in me if you ever need that extra support.

Thank you all for reading a part of my MS Chronicles

Nicole Cherise ♥️

Note to Self

Dear Nik,

The obstacles are here currently but they won’t stay. Please do the following:

Keep working hard, Continue to keep the family first, and forgive yourself.

Nicole Cherise will prosper, and you will be student loan debt free!

Keep your chin up and shoulders back, because your strut is back! No more dragging or limping your left leg. You Are a MS Survivor.

I know it may not seem like it but with God this is already done. Trust me.

Love Always,

Future You ♥️ (Dr. Nicole Cherise)

World MS Day🧡🧡🧡

May 30th, World MS Day! It may just be a day for some but this is a battle for others and myself everyday. What is it? MS is a disease that affects the Central Nervous System. Lesions can be founds on the brain and spinal cord due to the myelin being damaged for reasons we don’t know. This causes symptoms such as numbness, nerve pain, dizziness, the inability to walk, slurred speech, fatigue, blurred vision, double vision, memory loss, and more. No two people with MS are alike because it’s very complexed. MS is also considered an invisible disease because like myself, in the first stages, you can do your best to disguise it. However, it does progress and many of our warriors can need walking assistance devices or could be wheel chair bound. Unfortunately, in the Last stage, like many other brain diseases, the brain can be so damaged that eating, caring for yourself and speaking, slowly diminish away 😔 I’m praying for a Cure so that no one else has to endure this horrible disease…. so if you know someone battling the disease please give them a high five or a hug 🧡 I stand proud as a Warrior and we will continue to Fight!! M S.. made Strong! 🧡🧡🧡

Nicole Cherise

4/13/2010, MSanniversary

Today is a day that I will always remember because it was the day my life changed forever. “You have MS, Nicole” were words that made me scared and relieved at the same time. After not being to operate my legs, numbness in my hands and feet, weakness in my limbs, I felt relief that I wasn’t crazy. Can you imagine having to tell yourself to pick up your foot as you walk? Or not realizing that you are holding a cup because you couldn’t feel it in your hand? I knew I had to get tough and battle this diagnosis. I never knew how strong I was until being strong was the only option. I have my cheerful days and I Also have days of being scared. Scared that if this disease progresses having the ability to walk or needing assistance like some of my other fellow MS Warriors. I feel like maybe that’s my purpose in life, to inspire others who may think they are alone with any health diagnosis and encourage them to keep going. My faith and relationship with the Lord grew deeper. My family and SOME of my friends bonds grew closer. I’ve met some amazing people on this journey and look forward to a CURE!!

It feels like Jell-o… MS Symptoms 101

Today started as a typical Monday. The weather in LI is light rain and windy. I was in a good mood and work was going ok. After 2 pm, that changed! 
I started to feel dizzy and my legs began to feel wobbly. The feeling of Jell-O came over me and tried my best to hold it together. It wasn’t until I got home, where I broke down and later fell. 

You know what’s so interesting about being diagnosed with MS? Its regardless of how long I have been battling this debilitating disease, the same “original” 101 symptoms still occur. A year prior to diagnosis, my legs felt like jello all the time. It felt like gravity was pulling me down but yet I “looked” ok. 
Currently, I plan to diffuse some essential oils and apply some topically to my legs. I use doTerra DDR Prime and Francencinse for my legs; and peppermint oil for my headaches. Take deep breaths and relax. Snuggles from the hubby and son helps too 😉❤️. 
Thanks for reading friends
Nicole Cherise ❤️

As a MS patient, my dear loved ones, I’m trying. 

In the past 8 years, I’ve battle symptoms of Multiple Sclerosis. I’m an open book about this, therefore it’s no secret. I like to spread awareness so that others who are afraid, can Know they are not alone. Not only does MS have physical challenges but it also makes us schedule our lives differently.

I often cry to myself because I would make plans with people that I love and have to cancel because I don’t feel well. It’s hard to believe because on the outside, I “appear” to have it together. Yes, my fro is in place, my clothes look neat, I made it to work (somehow), I smile in selfies (hey, I like to take pics 💁🏾), I upload pics of my family but the truth is, it takes a lot of me to do those things. 

I want my family, friends and church family  to know that I truly love you all. I appreciate your words of kindness, prayers and guidance. I miss the “old” Nik all the time. I loved being able to just get up and go  and attend most events that people hosted. Now, that I’m a wife and mom, they are my immediate family. I try to be there for them during the moments I do have some additional energy while working full time. That doesn’t mean that I love any of you less or that I don’t want be a better family member, better friend, or church sister. God forbid if things went left and the disease progress agressively (which could happen), it’s going to be my husband and son who are obligated to step in as Caregivers. Doesn’t that mean that other family and friends can’t help? No, but you all have families as well to attend to. I’m a selfless person especially about that. Don’t stop plans, or life because of little ole me. Heck, I even feel that way for husband and son too. 

I also can’t forget the grieving that I’m still trying to process. At times, I’m just sad and want to be Still. I want to seek comfort from God’s promises and rest. While at rest, I’m mentally,  emotionally and physically calming down from stress. Losing my father and Goddaughter is a type pain that I never experienced and trust me, I’m doing my best. 


Through it all, I believe things will get better, I will get better. My relationships will grow better. I love you all and I ask that you don’t give up on me. I don’t need sympathy, just patience and understanding. Thank you 🙏🏾

Nicole Cherise