It’s been a while and I thought it would be great to come back on a day that’s so important to me. One this day 10 years ago I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis (MS). It was a day that brought so many emotions but mostly ANSWERS AND CLARITY.
Through this battle, I’ve grown tougher skin, resilience, and a strength that was unknown to me. Wobbly legs, Numbness all over my body, nerve pain, headaches, confusion, memory issues, trigeminal neuralgia, uncontrolled shakes and falling because my legs give out on me; are most of the symptoms that my battle consist of. With this battle, I don’t fight it alone.
My family, friends, church family, and work family and MS Warrior family, have been extremely supportive throughout the journey. Because of them, I’m inspired to have purpose and to NEVER give up. Therefore, I’m so blessed to have a great support system.
Here I am today, ready to give birth at any moment and reflecting on a monumental day in my life. Thank you all for your support, donations to our “Nicole Cherise” team and most importantly prayers. I love you all, thanks for reading!
Each day we wake up in a blessing, a second chance to do better. Sometimes we can feel like we are up against a wall and it gets hard to breathe. Together friends, let’s choose to keep going and take a Deep Breath.
The Unknown is what makes us give the quick answer of “No”. We get frightened because we have to step out of our comfort zone. We make excuses of why we can’t be great. Therefore, we choose to give up.
Friends, our biggest challenge is to take that leap of faith. We get so close to achieving our dreams, so close that we can Taste it! Yet, we fall short.
Let’s make a conscious effort to try for that leap. We can write down our vision, do the research, and finally execute! Believe in yourself. You Owe it to yourself. Be Happy and not afraid of Success.
That’s something I continue to tell myself during challenging times. It’s not easy battling a difficult disease like MS, but I can’t give in to it. I know many that read my blog, are battling other autoimmune diseases, mental health issues, or spiritual brokenness. I also, know that Caregivers have a challenging task when it comes to watching someone they love suffer. WE ARE NOT ALONE! Together, we can lift one another up because Support goes a long way.
This past week, I had my Tysabri treatment and the days after were rough. I had difficulty walking, it was a task to get dressed, I fell twice and I cried because of the pain and weakness in my legs. Even during this time of despair, I promised myself that I wouldn’t give up and I would PUSH through it all at my own pace. I urge you all to do the same. I went to the gym on Sunday and did my best with what I had for that day (I do the spoon theory in my head lol). The amount of support that was given to me was overwhelming and it truly melted my heart. People re-posted my video and tagged me as Inspiration for them to exercise.
Please continue friends. Don’t give up on yourself or the process. Below is the video that I posted and keep in mind that days prior, I was not able to walk far alone. God is good. Thanks for reading!!!
You don’t have to be in service all day long but Recognize that we get our Strength and blessings from a source deeper than Man. No matter who you submit or repent to, seek healing and Peace through the teachings.
One of the things I planned to do more in this blog is to spread Multiple Sclerosis Awareness and my journey battling it. I’m an open book in regards to this because I want to make sure people who are affected by the disease understand that they are not alone, and that also includes caregivers.
What I dislike most besides the diagnosis and symptoms, is the UNPREDICTABILITY of MS.
This is a challenge because earlier in the day I could be great, then all of a sudden my left leg will get weak and I start to limp or drag it. Making plans truly sucks because I can have something planned out a month prior and then the week of or even the DAY of, my legs decide not to work or I’m in a lot of pain. Pleeeeeeeease don’t even let me start about the weather. If the humidity is high, I feel drained. If it’s raining or freezing cold, it literally hurts me.
This gets me bummed out because I do not drive during these times, sometimes I need assistance walking, I do not get to exercise as much as I’d like to and I don’t always have the energy to run after my son. I do cry about this, I do get angry, but I try to remember that I’m still blessed. Many fellow MS Warriors are in wheelchairs, need walking aids Everyday and I’m sure they would trade places with me any day.
To put me in a “better place” mentally, I think of my “Why?”. I think of my family and friends, whom are my support system. I need them just like they need me so I can’t give up! So, to anyone who battles a chronic disease, and caregivers, please hold on. Do not give up. I can’t promise you that life will be “great” but I can promise that you have a pal in me if you ever need that extra support.
Thank you all for reading a part of my MS Chronicles
All praises to the Lord for providing me the strength and guidance to Keep Going even when my body is attacking itself.
My hope is that anyone who is going through the storms in their life, please remember you are NOT walking alone. Sometimes the weight of physical and mental health leaves you to feel as if your too weak, no my friends you Won’t FALL!
What does Joy mean to you? For myself, it’s knowing positivity and happiness coexist. This doesn’t mean that every day is peaches and cream, but there is always something to be hopeful for.
Beware, there are people who will through their expectations for our lives. People will do and say things that make us frustrated because we might not meet “the guidelines”. M̶o̶s̶t̶ Some of the time it’s our own family and friends that do this. I truly do not believe it’s on purpose or that they even know it’s happening but it does. When it does, insecurities build up, we may question our faith, our joy can slip away…. DON’T LET IT!
Stay strong to The Most High’s plans, stay true to your goals and ambitions, stay Strong during conversations. You don’t have to show aggression but be assertive with Your position. We got this friend, Joy will remain with us, no matter what others Expect.